this ongoing struggle
It’s been quite a while since I blogged personal stuff and I’m trying this from my iPod so I’ll keep it short and sweet.
My siblings and I are involved in the ongoing struggle for our freedom with my parents. It’s tearing me up inside to watch my little sister try to convince herself that there’s nothing wrong with her and that she is valued and loved by a whole host of friends and family who support her even while my parents tell her that she is the problem and that she is not cut out to succeed and that she is using them. Such selfish, hypocritical, hurtful words! It cuts me to watch them treat her this way.
Thankfully I, myself, have broken free emotionally if not yet physically/financially/proximity. I care about how they feel, yet I do not let their feelings dictate my life because the feelings of an individual are their own responsibility; I will no longer live my life catering to their emotions. In addition, I care about what they think, their opinions, yet I no longer cater to them either. I comply just enough to keep life living in their house tolerable, but I will not allow them to dictate my life and decisions and future.
I encourage Joy to break free from this prison of fear and guilt and insufficiency that our parents have burdened and continue to handicap us with. I can only wait and pray for the change.
So much for short and sweet. I just needed to write some things out I guess. Goodnight all. Hopefully new hopes and opportunities will rise with the sun.