February 2010
86 posts
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people, not so much
I’m tired of questions without answers the constant guesswork making assumptions never knowing what is true and what is false I’m tired of people who won’t say what they mean tell you how they feel what they want what is going on I’m tired of people who are fake saying one thing and doing another the sideways glances and whispering behind their hands playing the ally while...
January 2010
81 posts
planning to write tonight. I need to release some of these pent up thoughts and feelings. heading to bed early so that I’ll have time to myself to think. school tomorrow, and the work week begins again.
“What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who...”
– Chuck Palahniuk
asking for prayer
for a friend. she’s going through a rough time right now. I’m concerned for her emotionally and for safety’s sake. doing my best to be there for her right now, which means spending the night two days in row. the parentals aren’t thrilled with the way I’m supporting her, they’re more worried about me staying safe. which I am, I’m not stupid. but she needs...
“Sometimes someone says something really small and it just fits into this empty...”
– My So-Called Life (via chocolate-cigarettes)
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so, I went through and edited a few of my older posts. Quin is asking me to trust him, to let him see this side of myself. but there were just a few things I’m not prepared to share yet, so they got edited or made private. thankfully, I have backups of the originals on my computer. I’m trying be ok with the idea of more people seeing my writings like this. I should be able to trust my...
“The best things in life don’t happen unless you take risks. Risk yourself and...”
– (via staree)
“Parents rarely let go of their children, so children let go of them. They move...”
– ~ the five people you meet in heaven (via gatekeeper)
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(500) Days of Summer, and random stuff
I watched (500) Days of Summer with a friend today. I loved it just as much as the first time I saw it. I wasn’t sure how she was going to respond, because I knew she could relate to the story, but she seemed to enjoy it. in many ways it gave me things to think about. about how I don’t want to end up treating any guy the way Summer treats Tom. about how I don’t want to be...
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guys, guys, guys part 2
A) we went out again last night. Chelsey came along for dinner, and then the two of us went to starbucks. we sat and played cards in starbucks for a couple of hours until they kicked us out. I love the fact that he’s happy just sitting and talking to me. and he listens when I get moody or need to vent about things. B) I got invited to go see a movie this afternoon. I turned him down because...
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nothing beats knowing that someone has been thinking about you
especially when the person is 2000 miles away, or they’ve been at work all day long
something as simple as “whatcha up to” or “hows your day going”
knowing they care makes all the difference
it brings so much more to life
I am blessed to have several such people in my life ♥
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I need to be able to breathe
I am tired. tired of being restricted. tired of feeling as though I need to ask permission to breathe. I can make my own decisions. I’m humble enough to ask for help if I need it. you’ve taught me well. now you need to trust me. and you know what? I’m sure I’ll screw up and fall on my face at some point. I’m sure I’ll make mistakes. but they will be my...
“Stay is a charming word in a friend’s vocabulary.”
– Louisa May Alcott (via quote-book)
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guys, guys, guys
A) I went out with Q last night. I had a really good time, and he wants to do it again. he was a real gentleman; holding doors, opening the car door for me, and paying for dinner. we went out for chinese, a drive through the dark streets, and a long, long talk. he gave me a hug goodnight, and then texted to make sure I made it home safe.
B) I sent my work schedule to a friend who mentioned...
“Because it´s only when you’re tested that you truly discover who you are. And...”
– Lucas Scott, One Tree Hill (via quote-book)
“if I had my own world | I’d build you an empire | from here to the far...”
– angels and airwaves, “secret crowds”
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I won't be hurt the same way again
you intrigue me I don’t know what to make of you your words your actions your interest in me why me? why this now? what are you doing? what are you thinking? are you playing the big brother? or is it more than that? I don’t get it sometimes you seem like the same guy I’ve always known and then other times you say something that makes me think you’re looking at me in a...
back to real life
last week was great. being able to leave gardner, templeton, massachusetts, work, school, even my family and go to texas for a break was just what I needed. sure, I’ve returned with a lot of questions, concerns, and things to think about. but I needed to get away from everything for a while. now, it’s back to real life. back to work tomorrow. the spring school semester starts on...
talking, thinking
as helpful and theraputic writing is, nothing beats talking things out with a close friend that you trust. the questions they can raise that you never thought of, the insight and advice that they can provide. the ways they can question your motives and values. I spent a lot of time talking things out with my friends over this trip. I think that’s why so many different things came up all at...
“You know that feeling? That feeling when you just want the right thing to fall...”
– Nick & Norah’s Infinite Playlist (via kari-shma) (via quote-book)
1000.) Sometimes you just need someone. Someone to...
letitxroll:anybeat:jlinekiim: blogconfession: (via mols)
lots of thinking this week
this trip has given me a lot of time to think, and a lot of things to think about. my life is changing. I am changing. things are going to be different this year. maybe it’s because I’ve finally pulled out of my depression. maybe it’s the fact that I’m getting older and maturing. maybe I’m just becoming more independent. but my life no longer feels right to me. I feel...
I DON'T WANNA GO HOOOOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
“I think it’s more interesting to see people who don’t feel appropriately. I...”
– Ryan Gosling (via chocolate-cigarettes)
My friend doesn't know how to say goodbye. He just...
dontrunaway:
girlofglass:
I know I’m boring and he probably doesn’t want to talk to me, but he can’t say bye?
this is a guy thing. I very rarely have a guy say goodbye to me when we’ve been chatting. it’s the same with texting - they just stop.
