December 2009
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there is hope for the anxious
so I’ve known for quite a while now that a large part of the reason why I fell into all this anxiety and depression a few years back is because I bottle everything up inside of myself. I don’t let things roll off my back easily. I take things personally, even when they are not meant to be taken such. I overanalyze everything and small things have huge impacts on me mentally and...
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smileawhileforme:
still-dreaming: The Afters |...
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honesty is the best policy
so I had a really interesting discussion with Quin at work the other night. it started with him expressing the fact that he disagrees with one of my friend’s beliefs, which then moved on to my own beliefs, which he made sure quickly brought up my “rules” when it came to guys and dating guys. seriously, this discussion was deeper and more honest than any I’d had this summer...
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you were what I needed
you are becoming a distant memory almost like a dream that never really happened you were a quick blip in this video of my life you were only present for a moment but in that brief time you became so important to me too important to me and now its like that time never existed we are strangers again there’s no discussion no more smiles strangers in this small town someone else has become my...
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heisjealousforme:
I only like a few of these...
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I have been blessed....
….with some wonderful friends. seriously, I woke up with a good amount of anxiety and a small panic attack that came at me out of the blue yesterday. after putting out a call for prayer on my facebook, I got texts and emails and instant messages all day long from people that care about me. close to half of them from friends that I’ve known for just a few short months. they helped to...
iamsaved:
heisjealousforme:
if-youre-a-bird:
whataperfectmistake:
I want to personally tell every girl who’s ever been heart broken that they still shine and that the world is beautiful and that happiness is the least you are capable of having. That they shouldn’t shut anyone or anything out because that one guy was stupid enough to break your heart. Everything happens for a reason, even...
“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,...”
– Romans 8:38-39 (via iamsaved) (via heisjealousforme)
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teetering on the edge. of feeling strong and falling back into the pit. God help me please. i need you now.
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life is an amazing place sometimes. the twists and turns it takes can be so unexpected. so while I’m still learning to deal with the whole thing that happened this summer, I get asked out this week. not once, not twice, but five times by two different guys. one of whom felt the need to mention/ask me four times in a 12hr period. honestly, it feels good. I love feeling wanted. just knowing...
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I want to trust you
poor, poor you I’m sorry, but trusting is hard if you really want this you’re going to have to fight for it after what I went through earlier this year I don’t want to allow it to happen again I don’t want to feel the hurt the pain and frustration and there are things about you that cause me to hold back even more part of me says to let you in but I’m not sure that is...
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caring
I love feeling needed I love feeling wanted that sense of appreciation that someone else has for you whether it be for something you do something you say or even for what you look like but the best time is when you know its just for being yourself knowing that they appreciate the real you I think I’m very much an open book my emotions show clearly on my face, in my body language its easy for...
gah, I’m so tired. so much is going on though, I need to write. Christmas is tomorrow, but we’re not doing anything. I have a feeling I’ll have plenty of time to sit and digest things. good night all. watch for me tomorrow.
ego boost
I must say it’s a real ego boost to hear 3 department managers, a customer service manager, and two assistant managers (one of whom doesn’t even like me) fighting over which of them gets to have me work for them.
also: I have the current top IPH (items per hour) rating of all the cashiers. boo yeah!
certain people really need to grow up. it would make life so much easier. I could embellish further, but it would get more crude than I would like (the crowd I work with is starting to rub off on me mentally. not happy about that.)
“It takes a lot of faith to give love and even more faith to let yourself be...”
– Hayley Williams (via quote-book)
“Things don’t go wrong and break your heart so you can become bitter and give up....”
– Samuel Jackson (via christ-follower)
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can I claim work related injury for heartache?
no? haha, too bad. how about my right wrist? I pulled something on friday and it aches constantly now. plus the repetitive motions I go through every day are making it worse. probably going to end up wearing a brace before this marathon is over. :-/
off to work again!
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why do I care so much about what others think of me? why do I base my self esteem and self worth on someone else’s outsider perceptions? their judgements do not matter. yet I find myself continually attempting to live up to their expectations. to impress them. to make them think well of me. why do I desire a relationship so badly? why do I feel as though my life will not be complete until I...
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can I just say
that I wish one of the following options was true
A) I wish guys didn’t exist
B) I wish guys weren’t so confusing
or
C) I wish I didn’t care about guys so much
more on all this coming later. hopefully tonight but I’m super tired so we’ll see. my heart is just so confused and my head is trying to keep things straight but the tiredness combined with a slight...
“Boys are stupid. We should throw rocks at them.”
– A wise 5-year-old (via iamblessed)
confession:
I’m an eyeliner junkie. I currently have 8 in my bathroom. all different colors, shades, types, or brands.
um, yeah. my eyeliner collection just outgrew my Burt’s Bees chap stick obsession (which is currently at 6; 7 if you count the tube I melted in the dryer.)
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“Get Me Right” - Dashboard...
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peace and quiet
hmm….how to put into words what I’ve been thinking, feeling ways I’ve been changing, adjusting being made new again God has been working on my heart my mind, my emotions His touch is subtle gentle, and caring but it works in amazing ways this goes way back to the summer I realize where things went wrong I gave someone too much importance he took precidence over my relationship...
“The first step towards change is acceptance. Once you accept yourself, you open...”
– Will Garcia (via julie911) (via quote-book)
“Stop falling in love with everything that lets you down, even if your hands are...”
– ~ John Mayer (via gatekeeper)
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tylenol ramblings
today. I have a ton of stuff to do. and I have a slight hangover from taking tylenol cold and flu last night, so it’s hard to think straight. I need to start studying for finals on thursday. which means sitting and doing a truckload of problems until I’m confident I know what I’m doing. I have to pick up Joy from her class at noon. my room needs cleaning and is desperate for a...
“Reading is one form of escape. Running for your life is another.”
– ~ Lemony Snicket (via gatekeeper)
“The best accessories that a girl can have are her BEST FRIENDS”
– Unknown (submitted by modegeliebter) (via quote-book)